Paying homage to "Her"

First, I would like to send my utmost and genuine thank you for all you have shown me throughout the years. All the mutual memories we shared, will forever be embedded in my brain. The holidays, parties, games, school dances, passing letters in between breaks, lunch time memories, shoot arounds at the rec, and the late nights talking on the phone, couldn’t' t been possible without you. I can’t forget the nights driving around with no destination. Every song and video we shared will always remind me of you. I can hear that tune now, with an image of you appearing before my face. It's like the gift and the curse. Without you playing a vital role in my pubescent and early adult years, I wouldn’t be half the man that I am. And, believe it or not, there’s no remorse.

Next, I would like to show my appreciation for every petty argument we had. All the times we were unable to see eye to eye on the iota of situations. Every time you pointed the finger, belittled me and threatened to leave, thank you. All the times you “suggested” what I needed to work on, thank you. When you burned pictures, and threw the remains in the trash, thanks again. Words cannot begin to express the guilt I felt, because I thought I was the one making things worse. Come to find out, you were the ill one, not me. Admittedly, I am not perfect, either. With that being said, I can take accountability for overlooking your critical faults, because like many homosapien men, your pulchritude had me seeing sideways. Even more fulfilling is, you knew exactly what you were doing, but I know you had to sleep with that on you head. That was just a testament to your ingratitude towards what we built. I can vividly see you vaunting about your new guy and life, beautiful. I had convinced myself that the scrutiny I was subjected to, was warranted by my actions. Often times, I lapsed in rational and became bemused by my thoughts. Most times, I forgot that there's always two sides to each story. See, I never was the one to lose my identity in a person, but I had bent over backwards, more so than any man with a backbone should. I almost gave up my future to be with you. Why? Because I wanted it to work, badly. I was trying to placate you with my affection, although not often shown, words and gifts. But sometimes, that’s still never enough. A wise person once said, “You can’t make a person stay”.

With that being said, I've come to the realization that you were teaching me and I didn't know it. What did you teach me, you ask? You taught me how to recognize true unconditional love and what reciprocation is all about. You have shown me that beauty truly goes deeper than the flesh and how important intellect is, even more so now that I'm wiser. Now, I know what it actually feels like to be a King in her eyes. The confidence she instills in me (not that I need it, but reinforcement is always good), the support, and her steadfast to me speaks volumes. Going the extra mile is never an issue nor does she remind me of her benevolent gestures. I don't know how to act because it's foreign but it invokes a great jollity, without having to CHANGE. Now, staring into my future but never too far, I know what qualities to look for and it’s because of you. She’s cultured, haughty and has shown me that there's more to what I have already experienced in life. I look forward to what the future may hold with whomever that may be with. To be continued...

Paying homage to “Her”